In the beginning

Hi. My name is Ashley. Most would explain me as optimistic, sunshine, and passionate. They could be right. I have always enjoyed people and observing, and my faith and hope in all aspects of life is the reason I am who I am.

It was December 6, 2009, a Sunday. I worked a very long shift and went home to relax. A couple of hours later, one nap, one movie, and aching feet that brought me to Sonic. I ordered a jr burger, salad, rootbeer, and cheddar peppers. Proceeded to ask for white gravy to dip my tater tots in, and when the heart breaking news that they had just thrown it out brought me to tears. At that moment, staring at my many orders in the passenger seat, I realized that life as I knew it was going to change. The next morning, I woke up and rushed of to buy pregnancy test. You know, in movies it always takes 3 minutes (what feels like an eternity) to know the results. The first test I took turned positive within 30 seconds if that. I then took 4 more that day. They ALL turned positive as soon as I peed on the stick. I cried and cried. I was very excited and shocked at the same time. I never really thought.."What am I going to do?!"

Side Story: The doctors had told me when younger that I had a tilted uterus and it would be harder for me to get pregnant than most other women. This had proved true for so long. I accepted that I wouldn't have kids and even convinced self that I never really wanted to be a mother.

I called my mother to tell her I had an early Christmas present for her. Mimi hood. She nearly came through the phone in excitement. She would finally have a grand-baby to spoil and be part of its life. Now, to tell the father. Ah. Breathe. He was in shock and still is. That is to be expected, but this is a story of mother and baby.

So, now that you know how Pregasus came into existence...we can continue.

I maybe had morning sickness for two weeks after finding out. Then, the worse thing happened..food poisoning. I threw up for 24 hours and felt like death. After that, I had the easiest pregnancy. It truly was a blessing in disguise. My first doctors appointment was the day after my 25th birthday. It was amazing to finally get the first real acknowledgment of something growing inside of me. The next day we did and ultrasound and found out that I was 12 weeks and 4 days. My mom and dad came to the first view of our little joy. Seeing the baby was the most beautiful experience in my life. We were able to see he/she move and when the tech turned on the volume for the heartbeat, I began to cry. That sound will always stay with me...that moment is ingrained into my every fiber of this beautiful life. That day I was able to keep two pictures of my baby with me at all time.

Only a few people knew about my pregnancy. I knew that this was meant to be and that I really never felt like I would lose this child. I have been so tired and that has only tortured me more. Now that I knew there was a living baby inside of me...all I could think of is "I cannot wait to get bigger...I cannot wait to feel the first movements...I cannot wait for everyone to know...I cannot wait to find out what it is!"

Around the 3rd month, I began sharing my progress. Funny, everyone thought I was joking. Honestly, I was flattered that people thought I was that brilliant haha. 15 weeks, I began showing noticeably and started feeling the baby move.

I was sitting at home talking to a friend on facebook, and we were talking about grabbing a bite to eat. I've craved fruits and veggies the most...so when he said Jason's Deli, my heart started pounding. At that moment I felt the first wave of movement. It was incredible.

I am now 19 weeks...this little bugger moves so much...

Above pictures: Light pink is 13 weeks. Yellow is 15 weeks. Lavender is 17 weeks.